TUPELO HONEY

    by

    Joy Leftow

    JoAnne is one tough broad,
    Italian Irish descent
    from the Northeast Bronx
    Through sacrifice and dedication
    JoAnne is now a nurse at
    Presbyterian Medical Center
    
    This is her story
    bout a methadone baby
         born addicted
              on JoAnne's ward
    This boy had tupelo,
         honey colored skin,
    and hazel brown,
         almond eyes
    Birth mama's blond and curly haired
         A blue eyed Newyorican
    Daddy is a dark skinned African
    
    Mama named the baby Shonequon
    The nurses called him "Sweet"
    Sweet's a boarder baby who
    lived on the ward
    for 2 and a half months
    BCW tryin to decide
    what to do
    with that tiny
    methadone addicted baby
    
    Now mi amiga esta sin ninos
    she has no children
    y quiere uno mucho
    she wants one very badly
    so she fell in love with Sweet
    talked about him
    constantly
    
    JoAnne said
    Sweet is cryin all the time
    He holds his body rigid
    his cryin is so fitful
    kindled by the pain
    cause Sweet's addicted
    to methadone and 
    This is how he sounds
    
    eeehhhhhh
                       eeeehhhhhh
                                          eeeehhhhhh
                                                               eeeehhhhhh
    
    Sweet's tiny fists
         are always clenched
    his spindly arms crossing
         his scrawny chest
    This baby can't relax!
    he's got a monkey on his back
         Sweet's addicted to meth
    
    The Doctor confides
         he wishes he could
    keep Sweet tranquilized
         cause he's screamin so fretfully
    
    eeehhhhhh
                                   eeehhhhhh
                                                              eeehhhhhhh
    
    JoAnne loves to nurture Sweet
    She embraces him reverently
         comforts him with
              the rhythm of her heart
    she whispers soothing sounds
         cajolingly,
    her voice falls like soft waves
         caresses tender hollows
              of his frail anatomy
    her soft warm breath
              glides down his velvet neck
    Sweet responds with purring sounds
    
    JoAnne's gentle devotions
         linger on
    like a mango blossom's scent
         fragrant on a breeze
    Sweet watches her giddily
         clinging with his
              tightly gripped fists
    
    eeehhhhhh                   eeehh                      eeh
    
    Yesterday Sweet smiled for the
         very first time
    JoAnne bragged
         as though he were her own
    Sweet, my boarder baby
         is delayed in his response
    but yesterday was the
         first time
    God graced me with his smile
    Her eyes rimmed with blurring droplets
    dewdrops silhouette
         I love him, she said
              I want him to be mine
    Even though he's HIV
         and surely won't survive
              I want him to be mine
    
    Child Welfare let his Mama visit
         she hardly came at all
    Daddy was there
         mostly every day
              but he was always drunk
    Today they let her come and
    take my Sweet away
    Honey, JoAnne said,
    This baby's in a lot of pain
         he suffers from anxiety
    You don't have to hold him
         24 and 7,
    but you need to let him
         see your face
              smiling, talking
                   into his
    
    Sweet's Mama answered
    I know mucho more than you do
         let me tell you somethin
    You don't know what I been through
         All my kids are born on meth
    and that's the way it's always been
    
    The baby started fussin then
    his spindly arms
    clenched across
    his scrawny chest
    
    eeehhhhhh                    eeeehhhhhhhh       eeehhhhhhhhhh
    
    Sweet opened up his eyes
    and focused on JoAnne
    reaching out his scrawny arms
    
    But Mama reached the baby first
    and took him from his crib
         Esta te quieto, nino
              she said as
    she rocked him
         dispiritedly (distractedly)
              to her methadone beat
    Esta te quieto, nino
    It's gonna be okay Mama said
    Grandma said she's gonna help,
    She's carin for my other five
    My  oldest girl's gonna be there too
    And like I told ya,
    All my kids are born on meth
    And that's the way it's always been.
    But we know how to get by.